I miss my previous job 🙁 I hit my month mark at my present job and it looks like I’m lacking an ex, which is wild.
It’s further onerous as a result of my previous job was a part of my id. I labored in psychological well being and it felt so fulfilling, I felt like I used to be good at one thing *and* doing one thing good. But it surely was so, so exhausting and draining, and after a shopper died, I knew I couldn’t do that long run. It additionally didn’t pay nicely. I made a decision I’d take a break from it and take a look at a distinct path, and ultimately will work in psychological well being on the aspect.
So I began this new job, the place I don’t need to work with shoppers, nonetheless doing one thing comparatively useful for the neighborhood, however a lot much less fascinating. It pays significantly better and work life stability is healthier. I don’t take my work residence with me mentally.
However my staff just isn’t very progressive, they don’t actually acknowledge psychological well being or social justice, and it’s not as culturally various as my final office. I’m additionally the one childless particular person there. Nonetheless, they’re all well mannered and good and if I ask for assist, they’re useful. I really feel like I can’t be myself as a lot on this office, so I’m extra quiet, which has made it more durable to click on with anybody.
I notice I had a unicorn office beforehand the place I labored primarily with ladies, individuals of colour, and LGBTQ coworkers, the place we felt valued and revered (apart from our pay) and had a variety of open discussions about psychological well being as a result of it was a part of our work. I actually loved being with my coworkers and felt comparatively fast connection.
I’ve been staying linked to my previous coworkers and boss (we have been a distant staff) but it surely simply makes me miss them extra. And as a lot as I miss them, I do know I don’t need to work for them, as a result of they don’t have any positions that aren’t shopper going through that I may do. And the pay was too low for the excessive workload.
So now I simply really feel…caught in some type of limbo. I don’t really feel like I’m looking for a lot good in my new job as a result of I’m caught lacking my previous job and evaluating. I don’t really feel fascinating with out my previous job. I’d prefer to have extra issues to do exterior my work, like hobbies, and now I even have time for that, however I don’t have motivation to do it but. I love pals who’re like “work is figure” however spending 40 hours per week doing one thing, I’m extra motivated by feeling linked to my work.
Has anybody been in the same scenario? Does it get higher?
