I miss my previous job π I hit my month mark at my present job and it looks like Iβm lacking an ex, which is wild.
Itβs further onerous as a result of my previous job was a part of my id. I labored in psychological well being and it felt so fulfilling, I felt like I used to be good at one thing *and* doing one thing good. But it surely was so, so exhausting and draining, and after a shopper died, I knew I couldnβt do that long run. It additionally didnβt pay nicely. I made a decision Iβd take a break from it and take a look at a distinct path, and ultimately will work in psychological well being on the aspect.
So I began this new job, the place I donβt need to work with shoppers, nonetheless doing one thing comparatively useful for the neighborhood, however a lot much less fascinating. It pays significantly better and work life stability is healthier. I donβt take my work residence with me mentally.
However my staff just isn’t very progressive, they donβt actually acknowledge psychological well being or social justice, and itβs not as culturally various as my final office. Iβm additionally the one childless particular person there. Nonetheless, they’re all well mannered and good and if I ask for assist, they’re useful. I really feel like I canβt be myself as a lot on this office, so Iβm extra quiet, which has made it more durable to click on with anybody.
I notice I had a unicorn office beforehand the place I labored primarily with ladies, individuals of colour, and LGBTQ coworkers, the place we felt valued and revered (apart from our pay) and had a variety of open discussions about psychological well being as a result of it was a part of our work. I actually loved being with my coworkers and felt comparatively fast connection.
Iβve been staying linked to my previous coworkers and boss (we have been a distant staff) but it surely simply makes me miss them extra. And as a lot as I miss them, I do know I donβt need to work for them, as a result of they donβt have any positions that arenβt shopper going through that I may do. And the pay was too low for the excessive workload.
So now I simply really feelβ¦caught in some type of limbo. I donβt really feel like Iβm looking for a lot good in my new job as a result of Iβm caught lacking my previous job and evaluating. I donβt really feel fascinating with out my previous job. Iβd prefer to have extra issues to do exterior my work, like hobbies, and now I even have time for that, however I donβt have motivation to do it but. I love pals who’re like βwork is figureβ however spending 40 hours per week doing one thing, I’m extra motivated by feeling linked to my work.
Has anybody been in the same scenario? Does it get higher?